Well its almost near the end of the year and this is where I'm at. Should I start titling these posts as 'Dear Diary' cause that's what it feels like.

Dear Diary,
Why does life have to be so hard? Really, I pretty much live life day to day and it seems impossible to stay happy. I might be happy for a bit and then the ball drops and happy turns into tears and freaking out. Forget happy, if I could just stay emotionally content all the time that would be enough, maybe.

At least I finally am working again and just saw a paycheck. Money is finally going back into the bank and no longer out of my savings. It took nearly a month to get my job sorted out, but now I know what I don't like. I need to really start taking my future and career more seriously. I need to figure out how to financially take care of myself, one day buy a house, a new car, etc. I can't wait anymore and not plan for the future career-wise.

My personal love life is another big issue. Is it so hard to like someone and have them like you back? I've become ok with being without any physical in my life but I would give anything to have someone apart of my life. I'd love to have someone to take care of, who needs me and who could be my best friend, confident and thinks the world of me. Where is this person? Should I push harder with the guy I like now, try meeting someone new, or just be content with my best friend and accepting we were meant for each other as singles together. This is a tough topic, and I just don't want to spend the rest of my life alone. Mr. Right please be out there for me!